i'm back! *grinz*

from my trip to malaysia.. *:)*
26th November - 4th December

1. USJ [2days]
(a) stayed with A.Rina, U.Bernard, Reuben, Abigail & BENJI..
(b) dinner with A.BeeKheng, U.Jason, Steen & Seth
(c) missed supper with Reuben, Abigail & Benji *:(*
(d) REUBEN'S BAPTISM!!! [EEE.. green water.. *:S*]
(e) watched "Agent Cody Banks"
(f) watched "Agent Cody Banks 2"

2. Penang [4days]
(a) checked in to the usual place
(b) visit AhMa & AhGor
(c) ate good food
(d) shopping*
(e) visit AhMa & AhGor
(f) ate good food
(g) shopping*
(h) visit AhMa & AhGor
(i) ate good food
(j) shopping*.. [heh.. you get the idea.. *:P*]
*i don't usually shop alot.. but this time i had to replenish some of my closet! cleaared out about 3bags of i-cannot-wear-already clothes that had been sitting there taking up space for years!

3. Ipoh [half a day]
(a) met A.Rina, U.Bernard, Reu, Abi & Ben again!
(b) ate the ever-so-famous Ipoh Hor Fun.. [mmM-MMmm]
(c) chit chat
(d) gossipped about the "green guy" and the "black guy".. [SOMEONE said that they were kewt!!! *:S*]

4. Cameron Highlands [1&ahalf days]
(a) ate good food [but many flies, larh!!
(b) visited this Methodist Centre called Chefoo
(c) "tabletennis"ed with Sal & Reu
(d) "seesaw"ed with Sal & Ben against Sar & Abi [haha.. my side won.. *grin*]
(e) toured the place [looks like a good campsite.. coupled with the bball court, soccer field, stream.. awesome sight.. *:)*]
(f) went to where we were to stay
(g) opened ALL the windows [musty dusty place..]
(h) FOOD.
(i) strawberry scones & tea!! *:D*
(j) "home"
(k) shared room with Sar, Sal & Abi
(l) poor Reu & Ben got the living room couches.. noisy neighbours gave them little rest..
(m) visited the BOH Tea Plantations.. smelt wonderful.. got nice pictures too.. *:D*
(n) STRAWBERRIES & FLOWERS.. really pretty..
(o) went to Chefoo
(p) STRAWBERRY ICE LOLLIES!!! the real deal. not just syrup. you can TASTE the strawberries. thankyou A.Grace!! *:)*
(q) ate good food at the "many flies" place again
(r) headed for USJ

4. USJ [2days]
(a) got some rest
(b) shopping for gurl frenz
(c) U.Bernard baked his own strawberry scones.. [heh.. nicer than the ones at the shop but.. SHH.. *:D*]
(d) watched "Hitch"
(e) watched "Final Fantasy VII", i think.. *:S*
(f) watched "Are We There Yet?"
(g) ate great food
(h) went out shopping
(i) saw this guy in the Crazy Frog getup dancing away
(j) Abi & Ben wanted me to take a photo of him
(k) followed him to the second floor of the departmental store
(l) he stopped and just danced
(m) i asked Abi & Ben to stand with him
(n) he saw me indicating to them
(o) he came towards us
(p) Abi ran away & Ben ran behind me
(q) aiyoh.. haha..
(r) SUPPER with U.Bernard**!!! [annual affair.. great time of chatting, catching up, planning.. *:)*]
(s) back to Singapore
** heh.. this is the super-cool uncle who brought me caving & whitewater rafting.. happening, man!!

by the way, we travelled EVERYWHERE by car.. poor Dad had to drive us all the time.. even up the windy hills of Camerons.. yup.. thank you Daddi! *:D*

replies to tags!! and.. umm.. an overdue post.. *paiseh*

carol~*: hey gurl.. heh..OP over le..was kinda disappointing but, oh well.. its OVER!! YESH!! mmm.. probabli free this week before i go overseas.. yup.. so, let me kno wen u're free, kayy? miss ya..

anthea~*: ello!! *grinz* heh.. a BIT long larh..so i can see more posts from my wonderful taggers!! *:P*

albin~*: uh-oh..umm..u are? *paiseh*

carol~*: O0oh.. heh.. the post? well, it says as it says!! i've fallen in lyk.. *:P* with the kids from Sonshine Childcare Centre.. hehe.. *sheepish grin*
was CIPing that week and i was attached to the 4-yr olds.. *:)* a wonderful eXperience.. almost the same routine every day of the week but still enjoyable.. *:P* kkayy.. will tell you what it was like over there..


every morning at 7+ or eight, the children from ages 2-6 will come to the centre for breakfast.(if they have not already had it at home..) then they get to play toys, have assembly and attendance-taking before lessons start.

i was with Nursery2(Joy) & Nursery2(Love).. one class will first have math while the other will have chinese(they alternate later).. nothing much to do during this time eXcept watch and learn how the teachers handled a noisy, "short-attention span"ed bunch of kids.. *:P*

after that, they get to go outdoors! one of their favourite times.. mmm..but this is when i see their naughty side.. they'll fight to hold my hand and eventually i have to tell them to move away and get back in line.. mmm.. then i'll pity the smaller children and hold their hand 'cause we sometimes have to cross streets.. well, places we visit: two playgrounds, an area where there's sand to play with, the void deck under a nearby block.. heh.. talk about going wild!! they'll run about until their uniforms are soaked with perspiration! haha.. but oh, well.. they're children.. *:)*

then its BATH-TIME. yup..the chinese teacher will bathe the kids and my duty is to umm..help them dry up and put on their shirts, blouses and occasionally a few shorts.. *paiseh*
O0oh.. aniwei, let me tell you this silly thing that happenened!!

i was drying Matthew, the last boy from N2Joy.. still remember.. he was wearing a red shirt with blue sleeves.. heh.. then when his class was done, i was about to leave with them for lunch but Chen Lao Shi(the chinese teacher) asked me to help with N2Love.. so i stayed back.. mmm.. then i remember after helping Elicia put her blouse on, Matthew came up to me again, holding his towel and bag and was waiting for me to help put his clothes on!! *yikez!* was kinda surprised.. i was like, didn't i just change you a while ago? *:S* but since he came to me unchanged, i repeated the process of adjusting the red shirt such that he could wear it properly.. yup.. went to supervise the children's without thinking much of it..
i made sure that after they finished their food, they returned their plate to the tray and they could each have a slice of apple.. then that cheeky Matthew took TWO pieces! aiyoh.. such a sweet angelic face, yet so greedy..
heh.. was onli after lunch, nap time, lesson time, play-toys time and when we came to telly-time(here's when all classes come together), did i realise there WERE two Matthews it was actually ONE Matthew & ONE Gabriel.. -.-'''
*argh* MAAN, it was SO embarrassing larh!! dunno why i always malu myself.. especially infront of guys.. haha.. oh, well.. *:P*

yup.. so basically, that's pretty what the kids have everyday eXcept for friday.. they have what they call "Happy Time" when there's Praise & Worship and then a Bible story and some games.. umm.. yeah.. Ms Liu threw a bombshell at me.. i mean, i didn't mind watching the kids as they nap, reading to them, getting them to recite the chinese poems, making sure they learn their math and can write their names but.. to ask me to do Bible Story telling infront of the N1s &N2s?!!! i haven't eXactly tried that before.. *bleah* but umm.. my mouth worked quicker than my brain and i found myself saying okay, i'll try.. *:S* heh.. Ms Liu gave me a "lesson plan".. it was an A4 sized paper that fundamentally said i was to tell the story: "David and Goliath".
wow.. okayy.. at least there's a visual aid i could use(the picture Bible).. yup.. heh.. onli had 2hours to prepare myself for it so i did what i do best when faced with this kinda situation.. *:P* i prayed!! hehe.. QUITE a few times before i felt ready to go through the story..
well, to cut this long post short, PaPaGod made EVERYTHING go smoothly.. *:)*

ahh..
the joys of having Him in my life.

i have fallen in like..

we just met today and although it wasn't like at first sight, i now have to admit that i can't stop thinking about..
JERRON GOH..
*sigh* SO adorable..
we weren't in the same class but i occasionally popped over to help in his kls..
he would ever-so-often call my name in that loving voice, even if he didn't have anything to tell me..
he would give me the oh-so-kewt smile and tell me that he wanted to hold my hand..
he would choose to sit beside me even though he knew he might get into trouble because of that..
and, yes..
i have fallen in like.

BUT..

i have a confession to make..

i have fallen in like with the following too..

MATTHEW & GABRIEL GOH (twins),

CRYSTAL LIM,

BAO YING,

SHER YEE and

GEK YIN.

Dear N2(Love&Joy), AmandaSAMANTHA JieJie loves you too.. *smile*

*spring cleaning*

haha.. wow.. i guess i really haven't been updating in a LONG tym.. *paiseh* mmm.. been busy ma.. *:D* yups anyway, yeah..

overdue: congratulations to Hopefools for Doing That Thing You Do! yeah.. u guys were great.. *:)*

sorta good news: advancing to my second year on condition.. yeah.. so, i gotta wrk hard during the hols to catch up with what i didn't fully grasp.. [even bringing my notes n books when i go overseas!! yups.. *bleah*]

something that made me smile: the success of the Youth In-ning we had!! yups.. wow.. eXercised quite abit during the badminton game.. also had feedback that ppl enjoyed the movie.. *:)* yay!! *grinz* thinkin of getting WASAP to organise another one.. heh heh.. *:D*

i like: dance! Stephanie's wedding.. yups.. get to work with JieJie Lydia again! and ofcourse Hannah, Fiona, Alicia, Jeslyn & Amanda too! heh heh.. Power Of Your Love.. only thing.. i hafta keep practicing!! don't wanna forget my steps and malu myself!! *yikez*

looking forward: the return of mahh babyy Z!!!! miss him so.. i don't care! Trix n i have booked you le horh..

a sigh of relief: Chinese AO's are over! YES!! hope i don't hafta retake it!!!

yucki yucki yucki: PW+flu. *sigh* worst combination ever.

hmm..

not the desired outcome but hey, i guess i made new friends and learnt stuff.. consolation is better than nothing, right? yeah.. well, only wish i didn't let my class down.. they were so supportive and excited when they realised i made it through the auditions..

its..alllmmostt..ooo-vvvverrrr...

i.. *pant* seeeee tthhhee ffffiinniishhingg..*pant* lllliinnne..
itts jjusssttt uppp.. *pant* ahhead..
a fewww.. mmmore.. *pant*
i.. hhhavvvee rrreaaachheddd! *whew*
WAIT-
youuu mean..
itss NOT ovvverr???!!!
*ARGH*
rrrrriiiggghhhttt.
rreessuullttss.
great.
*argh*

i am SO dead..

Phy 2dae. GONE.
mi? EVEN GONER.
going..GONE.

why i am stressed.

EXAMS. *ARGH*

a birthday of mixed feelings

SURPRISE
people who i didn't eXpect to remember my birthday, did.. *:)*
so kewl that my DI-BAIT juniors all messaged me to wish me.. yeah.. they really RAWK! *grinz*
NAS, YAN, ZAF.. friends of DI-BAIT too! CLA & BEN.. miss them..

DISAPPOINTMENT
people who i tawt wouldn't forget me, did.. *:'(*
friends of 4years.. wow.. i know this doesn't sound nice but.. hey, i guess maybe.. i don't mean as much to them as they mean to me.. *sigh* i really don't know if i should still carry on waiting for the people i called "my besties" to say "i'm sorry i'm late, but..." or just take it that they've forgotten me.. oh, well..

at least there's feelings of

HAPPINESS
received sweet messages and cards and some presents from my friends.. *:)*
thankew PaPaGod for giving me my Mummi & Daddi who gave me life! *:D*
thankew JieJie for the ORANGE belt!!! *grinz*
thankew MeiMei for the bottle of.. hehe.. you knoe wad.. *winkz*
thankew my baby Z for the sweet greeting all the way from Australia!! >hugz<
thankew Prayer Buddy for the shorts! hehe.. yeah..
thankew CCK TJCers for the umm.. 4xHappy Birthday Song.. *:P*
thankew Landon for the mail and the song.. *:)*
thankew Evangeline for the birthday testimonial..
thankew Pillow #2 for the Planet Shakers CD!!
thankew James & Thaddeus for the oh-so-kewt Eeyore!! *:D*
thankew Daniel for the socks.. -.-'''
thankew Mello & Kenni for the Famous Amos cookies!! hehe..
thankew C2 for the late, but still appreciated present.. *:)*
thankew my CT for the gift.. *;P*
thankew WH for the special pin of great value..
many more thanks to others who i've thanked in person or message! *:P*

NERVES
well, to those who knew, i went through auditions for the Music Awards held in my school.. *:P* was REALLY nervous.. sat through all the other contestants in the same category as me.. some were really good.. but as i mentioned in my earlier post, i left everything to PaPaGod..

SURPRISE AGAIN
when my CT messaged me during Physics Lecture.. stoned a while.. showed the message to Mello.. stoned again.. then remembered i promised my wonderful pianist, JieJie Audrey tt i would let her be the first to know.. *paiseh* so i messaged her and my family and loved ones.. yeah..

JOY
onli kicked in a few hours later.. but.. WHOA.. thankew PaPaGod.. *:)*
still need help to choose a song.. yeah.. *:P* still relying on Him for my every need.. *:D*

*yikez!*

all nerves..
what if i go off key?
what if i cannot remember the lyrics?
what if i stand wrongly?
what if the judges don't like my image?
what if the judges don't like my voice?
what if i'm not what the judges are looking for?

aiyah.. worry for what.. anyway, when i sing, i sing for Him. He gave me this voice and i should use it for the glory of His name! yeah..

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -- Romans8:28

hmm.. passing the first round of auditions would already be a pleasant gift to me.. *:)*

PaPaGod, i need help!

DILEMMA!
intend to participate in Music Awards.. went through ALOT of trouble to find people to accompany me..now, i have two options and i have to make a decision.. yet then again, the choices are also dependent on other factors that cannot be controlled by me.. *sigh*

problem:
i want to sing. need a musician because NO WAY am i going to do a solo.. anyway, i cannot find a minus-1 track of the song i intend to sing. *:S*

possible solutions:
first of all, my god-sister, an eX-saint from the '02 batch, can play the piano for me.. (she's not singing though) however, i'm not sure if that's allowed.. well, from what i've heard, this has been done before but the judges might not want this this year.. *:S*
i do have another option, though.. a classmate who's played the piano for many years.. however he's not a Christian and may not know the song.. also, i have problems relating the way i want the song to be played, something that will be avoided if i played wiv JieJie.. *sigh*

what am i to do?!!
praying for things to work out.. especially since the closing date for sign up is TOMORROW!!

clearing the cobwebs.. *ahh-choo!*

Wow.. i guess that it has been a really long time since i last blogged.. school work has taken up too much of my time than i would like it to.. well, anyway, i'm gonna talk about some of the highlights this past week.. hehe.. *grinz*

Monday:
Start of the Christian Mission Week! *:D*

Tuesday:
Bio quiz on Genetic Engineering. Revised twice over the past week for it! Guess what?!! YEAH!!! i passed my first test!! *grinz* yeah.. haha.. felt good.. not the best in kls bt still, motivation to do better.. Even Ms Yeo felt that i had improved.. *:)*
Rehearsal for CMW Drama - "My Story His Story".. that was a short play based on the testimonial of Ms Carol Wong.. of how she accepted Christ.. a really touching play..
the cast include Angie(as Carol), Jael(as Grace, her bestfriend), Gail(as Mrs Wong), Ron(as Mr Wong), HongIan(as YingHui, her younger brother), Daniel(as Marcus, her other younger brother), HuiRu(as LiMing, her younger sister), Atalia(as Mrs Gabriel, her GB teacher) & ME(haha.. believe it or not, the MAID.)
After the rehearsal, i went for a talk by an invited professor to our college to speak on "Aliens, Evolution & the Origin of Life". was really informative.. the questions raised were answered well and i was reassured of what i believed in.. yups.. *:)*

Wednesday:
PE today. Just before lesson started, was knocked on the head real hard by a tennis racket. yeah.. imagine *OUCH*. haha.. was only an accident but a painful one.. *bleahz!* *:P* Fortunateli, teh racket didn't have sharp edges so there were no cuts, just a bruise.. haha.. My classmates were really sweet, offering me an icepack(or rather, a makeshift one: her waterbottle filled with cold water from the cooler behind the gallery..).. but i think i haf a really hard head so i was up and about after around 10minutes of stoning and rubbing the 'or-cheh'.. *:P*
mmm.. the main highlight of today was the fact that there was a blood donation drive in school! yep! was SO excited, now that i was above the requirement of 45kg and i was past my 16th birthday! intended to go together with Diana and Linda but then, when it was time for my one and only 1hr break and i got all the written documents ready, i realised that I FORGOT TO BRING MY IC!!! *sigh* man, i'm just SO forgetful.. *frownz* well, spent much of my break thinking of how to produce a copy that had my photo and my IC number.. mmm.. then guess what? Daddi managed to email me a scanned image of my IC and umm.. Shaun's friend, "Roger", got me a blank paper to print the stuff out.. *:P* yeah.. really grateful.. AND relieved.. *:)*
well, in the end, i went alone after school because most of my classmates had already gone.. was VERI nervous but while waiting for the doctor to certify me "OK" to donate blood, Atalia came along.. then Siva.. yeah.. made new friends there too! a Councillor, Daniel, and someone else who's name i've forgotten.. *paiseh* haha.. well, anyway, it turned out that the minimum weight for me to donate blood was raised cuz i had taken malaria pills last year when i went overseas!! whoa.. fortunately, i met the requirement, even though just by 0.5kg.. *whew* haha..
the most painful thing about the process was actually the prick from the needle to test the iron level.. tiny but hurt.. *:S*
mmm.. when it was my turn to donate, my heart was beating really quick but my Civics Tutor, Ms Yeo was there to chat with me and distract me from the thought of the needle.. *:P* mmm.. aniwei, i was at the seat with the equipment on my left and the nurse started to take my blood pressure.. THEN, i remembered i was a leftie.. got worried.. what if i had difficulties doing things with my left hand? asked the nurse if she could draw the blood from my right hand instead.. she checked my blood pressure then looked at me.
told me that if i donated from my right arm, she would draw only 300+ml..(apparently the vein was small.. *bleahz!* *:P*) whereas, my left hand could give 450ml of blood.. yeah.. so she asked me to make a choice..
obviously, take from left larh.. *:P* after going through so much, a little more won't hurt ma.. yeah.. mmm.. the actual drawing of blood didn't hurt, though.. could only feel the needle going in, but that was it.. *:)*
during the process, i found out that i was healthy enough(and had enough iron) to give two more bags of blood! kewl, huh? haha.. but they obviously only drew one.. *:P* yeah.. the nurses were really friendly.. *:)* got an orange bandage with smiley faces.. *:D*
well, overall, it felt really good to donate blood.. yeah.. imagine yourself saving LIVES.. yeah.. totally worth the ant's bite. *smiles*

Thursday:
THE DRAMA.
the crowd was disappointingly less than i was hoping for.. only half the Audi was filled.. but i believe that they enjoyed themselves, judging from the laughter during the play.. mmm.. wonder if the right emotions were evoked, though..

Friday:
JC1 Chapel.. atmosphere was pretty dead(deader than the JC2 batch..), probably due to the lousy acoustics of the hall.. but i believe some people were touched..
well, CMW concluded with the SFC Reunion Dinner in the canteen.. started off at 6+with P&W and two messages by an eX-teacher and the very first SFC President.. was really inspiring.. *:)* spoke about LOVE and TIME.. yeah.. *:)* but i missed the worship because i fell asleep in the COR Library and only woke up 45mins after the event started! *paiseh* was eXhausted, i guess.. mmm.. after that, was dinner time.. din eat, though.. joined the guys table.. haha.. stupid jokes.. left after a while.. went to the track.. some of the J2s were there singing and playing the gUItar.. haha.. was drawn by the music..
something happened and i did something really silly.. learnt a valuable lesson.. healing inside.. but was touched by a few people who showed their care and concern.. eLIZabeth, Mentor Shirley, VALerie, TIMothy & Caleb.. yeah.. can't eXpress what i felt but it all made sense.. learning to FROG.. yeah..

Saturday:
today? preparing some stuff for the carnival on Monday.. my class will be doing Face Painting.. hope people come patronise the booth! *:P*

overdue..?

hey.. i knoe i haven bin postin in quite a while.. bin busi.. *paiseh*
wiv the Council Commendation tml and Christian Mission Week coming up first week of August, yeah..
SFC's singin once again, with the choir, for tml's BIG event.. *:)* yeah.. will be seeing my old friend, Gabriel, there tml.. apparentli, he was invited.. yeah.. YJ Councillor ma.. *:P*
O0oh.. also, the one other thing that has bin takin up some of my time is the drama that i'm involved in during CMW.. yeah.. playing a realli minor role but still, i gotta practice!! haha.. [*shh* dun tell ani1, i'm havin trouble wiv my three lines!] yeah.. *paiseh*
haha.. oh, well.. aniwei, here are the overdue photos taken wiv my besties triX & Z.. *grinz* man, miss 'em quite a bit.. *sigh* hope TriX's competitions bin kewl..

me & my wonderful, pretti triX.. *:)*

super tall Z & super short me.. *:P*

yeah.. my besties.. *:)*

haha.. he's so happy, he actualli tries ta smile! *:D*

there she is!!

my baby Z pining for the pretti triX! *winkz*

boo.

o0oh... another friend leaving soon... JASON YEUNG!!! *sigh* really nice guy... will miss his smile, his crying eyes, his jokes, him. he sorta made OG30/31 complete. take kare, dude!!

mmm... it just hit me. July is here. the forty day fast is here. time to pray for the nation. *:)*

a sad smile?

the written papers are FINALLI over... left: BIO SPA... *yikez!* haha... oh, well... nothing much ta studi eXcept for the previous bio practz... *bleahz!* *:P*

o0oh... anyway, i had a really great time out with all-time besties, Trix & Z!! we went out IMMEDIATELY after my Phy paper... -.-''' yeah.. but this time, it felt slightly different for me... was feeling a little sad ba... regretful? maybe... 'cause the 1st July 2005 630pm, was the last time i'll see Z before he flies off to Aus the next day... yeah... suddenly wished that we had more time spent together... suddenly felt the "if only" syndrome[that i thought i broke away from MANY years ago] acting up again... but, i guess, it's obviously not the end of the world... i still have my beloved super-tall, super-intelligent, super-skinny sweetie, TRIX(ie) [*winkz* private joke... hehe...] here for me... *:)* yup! no worries...

well, it felt really good to be able to catch up with the both of them over a meal at NYDC... *grinz* hehe... was me first time there so felt so tootified larh... didn't know/couldn't decide what to get so just relied on recommendations... haha... tried "three amigos" baked rice for the first time! not bad... *:D* sounded really cool until i read the little "intro to the dish" at the side... haha... "a testosterone favourite"... -.-''' haha... ordered that anyway... *:P*

o0oh... i now know that i eat really slow... haha... yeah... poor Trix & Z hadta wait for me to finish my main course before we could order dessert!! *:P* maybe i talked too much ba... told too many unfunny lame jokes oso... *paiseh* o0oh! found out from Z that his Bball junior might like him! *yikez!* haha... well, yeah... really really really enjoyed myself, chatting, listening, teasing Z... *winkz*

mmm... Trix and i gave him the "leaving present" we got for him[i shan't say when]when we went out together... nothing fanciful, just an A5 notebook which we instructed him to write in EVERYDAY... hehe... and to NEVER tear any page out... *:D* well, was fun shopping with Trix that day went umm... hunting for the gift! saw many nice patterns and pretty colours... we couldn't decide whether to get hot pink or gayish purple but all the same, we finally agreed on this really nice design with shades of green and blue... *:)*

well, had dessert... some other funny name i cannot remember... but wasn't too bad either... *:)* O0oh... another thing i found out about my dear friend is that he can flirt!! haha... yeah... he just needed to smile at the waitress to surprise her and she started coming over to our table more often to refill our water!! hehe... just kidding larh... NYDC's service is really good larh...

after food, the three of us went window shopping! o0okay... not eXactly shopping, but umm... picking out pink shirts from TopShop to 'remake' Z... yeah... *:D* saw some really nice clothes but, nah... haha... was sweet of him to be all brotherly and all when Trix and i asked his opinion on some of the microminiskirts less tasteful clothings... haha... suddenly reminds me of something we heard at the *a-hem* g-string section... there was this salesman who actually went up to this lady and asked "can i help you?"... umm... we were thinking: how in the world could the guy help her? find out her size and help her pick out nice designs?!! *yikez!* no way... *:S*

oh, well... was a pity time just flew when we were together... gonna miss the both of them 'cause i know it'll be a while before i'll be able to meet them again... can you believe it? our friendship now sorta survives on sms, MSN and blog-updating?! yeah... quite a pity but i intend to do something about it... *sigh* mmm... took some photos with my two besties... can only upload them later but i'll DEFINITELY get it done! *;)*

loving and missing my sweetie Trix & babyy Z...

*ARGH*

*argh* two papers down, five more to go.. that includes Math(tomorrow), Biology(the day after), Chinese[*yikez!*]&Physics(in three days time) and last but not least, Biology SPA...doesn't help that i haven't had enough time to study... *argh* all thanks to my wonderful neighbours upstairs who decided to renovate their flat during the ONLY week i was free to study... *frownz*
yeah... let me fill you in on what i was feeling like on one of the days i woke up... hahaz...

>Good morning! And welcome to the house of noise! Whereby everyday, we feature a new sound that is jarring to your ears... First of all, we have the continuation of drilling from yesterday, and for today's special, we've got hammering! Come on everybody, doesn't the symphony of noise just irritate you? Stay tuned and you just might hear our latest track: "Screams from the Neighbour Downstairs"<

yeah... after that, i washed up, got myself changed, packed my bag, left my home and called a friend's mum...FORTUNATELY she allowed me to go over to study or else i probably would have screamed!!! *argh*haha... yeah... so that's how i spent my entire week... waking up to noise and rushing over to my friend's place...

well, i just wanna say THANKEW to my friend's mum who so kindly let me crash at such a short notice!! really grateful... *:)*
haha... now, i've got a headache from today's Chemistry... chances i'll do badly: 99%... *sigh* gotta buck up, gurl...

Adrenaline Rush..!!

Woke up at 06:45am. Got ready by 07:15. Left for Gopeng, met Po[Guide] & Suri[Captain]. Drove through a narrow, winding road amidst the 'grasslands' and hills. Reched activity site: Sungai Kampar, Sungai Itik(Duck River).

Although it was only the five of us, Uncle Bernard, JieJie, the professionals and me, it was a fun ride... *:)*
The rapids were mainly grade 1&2 eXcept for certain falls["kah-da-boom"... hehe... inside joke] which were grade 3... so not much kick but was still an eXperience to me... Got to appreciate nature more ba... Po pointed out to us a Fishtail eagle which was just above us! So kewl... *:)* Yeah... Totally awesome. A pity that Ezra didn't join us this time... I think both him and Ethan got scared off by the caves at Gua Tempurong last year... hehez... *:D* Aniweiz, he DOES need some eXercise! *bleahz!* *:P*

Well, enjoyed myself thoroughly... the rapids, the little picnic in the middle of the course, the thrill, the eXcitement... was worth the RM180 I saved up, I guess... Just gotta prepare to tighten my purse strings for next year’s probable eXpedition to Kota Kinabalu!! Hehez... hope to see more cousins on the next trip, though... *grinz* You rock, Uncle Bernard!! *winkz* [as mentioned by a friend of mine... *:P*]
Kkz... As for now, it’s time for some shots from the shutterbugs!
WHITE WATER RAFTING!!!

01:47:36
18th June 2005

On the way to Gopeng...

before a grade three fall!!!

haha... suspense onli, seh... *:P*

the fall!!! haha... [fortunateli i didn't get thrown out! *paiseh*]

man, why are they smiling at the rapids?!! i can' bear to look...

pulling up...

meanwhile... hehe... *:D*

Po & Suri goina check out the durians... unfortunateli, dey weren't ripe yet... *bleahz!* *:P*

continuing the journey... not much more to go... *:P*

reachin the river bank for a break...

yeah... was great!! *:)*

mind you, this was NOT super imposed... *bleahz!* *:P*

yes, my uncle rawkz!!! *grinz*

some free tym to ourselves when we arrived SAFELI @ de destination...

nice scenery, eh? hahaz... yeah... ya'll gotta try out white water raftin, man... hehe... fer me, it'll be grade 5&6 nxt tym, pleaze!! *:D*

JieJie took this on the way back... *:)* [i was slpin... *paiseh*]

this tym, i was AWAKE... *:D*

*whew*

CCK Family Camp -> Talking With God [11-14th June]

Woke up at 5. Loaded up & got into the car by 6:30am. Right on schedule.
Reached Utara Subang Jaya(USJ) in time for lunch with Aunty Rina & family before taking a short nap at their place and sitting through another 1½ hours of butt-numbing journey to Port Dickson[the mozzi haven]. YES. There were SO many mosquitoes!! And with me being sweet having sweet blood & slightly high metabolic rate, attracted 43 mozzies to suck to their hearts content… *bleahz!* *:P* [yeah.. Reuben counted with me.. hands and legs! *:S*]

Anyway, arrive d at Guoman Resort, met the Loke family, collected room keys and awaited the coach's arrival to "welcome" my roomie, Rebecca(Sec1). JieJie shared a room with Fiona(also sec1) because MeiMei was at GB Camp when we left and would halfway through our family camp, have to go for OBS[miss her so... *sigh*]... mmm... chose beds, briefing, PAW, then sessions... *:P*

Man, the speaker was great! The message was clearly God-planned and I believe all 70 of us -- wait. It’s 50 of us, since the children and Sunday School teachers & helpers sat out... -- were truly blessed and motivated to commit ourselves to serve our PaPaGod. *:)*
Well, basically, the sessions covered "Being Hungry for God", "The 3Ms of Praise & Worship -- Methods, Motivation & Might", "Asking, Seeking & Knocking"[they ARE different], "Hearing the Voice of God" & "Commitment that Jesus rejects". Hehe... I know I probably sound like a preacher or something but I really learnt A LOT. For example, hunger for Him would lead to appreciation & satisfaction in Him, then the want to fellowship with Him even more, & finally, resulting in victory in Him. Haha... I'm not expecting everyone who reads this to understand but... oh, well... just so excited... *paiseh*
Also, did you know that asking, seeking and knocking are three different things altogether? Asking has to do with faith and needs, seeking, PaPaGod's will, and knocking, breakthrough. Was really interesting the way Pastor Clement put the point across... Oh, I HAVE to say this... He is one GREAT joker!! Hahaz... must have heard at least 40 jokes and stories over the 5 sessions! Yeah... [you could ask me if you wanna know some of 'em... hehez... & I'll tryta tell those I remember in the hilarious way he told us… *:D*]

Well, so, other than the great PAW times led by Pastor May, Kenneth & Uncle Lawrence, the enjoyable yet powerful message brought to us by Ps Clement, one other interesting part about the camp were the meals..! yeah... haha... during each meal time, it just SO happens that one dish would be bad/spoilt! First it was the yellow watermelon, then the papaya, then the vegetables, then the yucki bitter cake!! *bleahz!* *:P* believe it or not, this happened! And I was *blur* enough to have two pieces of the papaya and cake before realizing something was wrong! Eh, actually I didn't realize it... BUT I shall consider Jesu telling me as me realizing... *paiseh*
mmm... other than that, the food was good... they served lamb, beef and even mutton too! Wah... now I know why the camp fees were so eXpensive! *:P*

Oh! Mmm... one not so kewl thing was turning on the tap to wash your face in the morning, then finding, to your horror, the water flowing onto your hands yellowish! Flush the toilet and you’d think someone just peed! *yikez!* NOT kidding. I've got nothing to say about bathing because I just didn't look. Not taking any chances of freaking myself out... *bleahz!* *:P* haha... but at least I survived! *:P*

O0oh... on to funner times. Really kewl. During the break times, JieJie, Fiona, Alicia, Amanda, Marcus, Shawn & I went swimming!! Hehe... My roomie went jet skiing with her family, just a stone's throw away from the resort. Turns out that although she seems so quiet and all, she's actually really sporty! Yeah... Anyone game for a soccer match with her? *winkz* hehe... well, aniwei, while swimming Shawn decided to try out jet skiing too, so his dad rented the jet ski for an hour, costing him RM180! Yeah... then Shawn invited Fiona, Alicia, JieJie & me to try it out... so, after payment, we each took turns clinging onto the camp commandant as he "took the wheel". Riding at top speed over the waves was just SO kewl... he brought me straight towards the setting sun for a few minutes before taking a left turn but as we moved nearer and nearer the sun, the sea just seemed to keep looming ahead and never end. OFCUZ we never reached it but the view of land from sea was breath-taking and just reminded me of how awesome my PaPaGod is... *:)*
So sad that each of us only got 20minutes to hug that dashing camp commandant, I mean, on the jet ski... *winkz* But it’s really an eXperience I'll never forget.. I was really apprehensive at first but the feeling of the wind blowing at your face, the view, the EVERYTHING was just so kewl that I didn't want to get off afterward... *bleahz!* *:P* hahaz... totally awesome! Hey, i AM adventurous after all! Hehe.. *:D*

mmm... so, besides the sand, sun and sea, I also played a table tennis match with Amos against his sister and her boyfriend, Lydia & Leonard won 1, lost 2... haha... eXpected! Cuz I just sorta picked up the sport that day! But it was fun... *:)*
well, free time was also taken up by the preparations for Family Night whereby group presentations would be recorded for viewing on the last day...

So each group drew lots to see whether they were to put up a 3minute MTV to a medley of 4 songs: Square Rooms(Retro), Too Sexy(Disco), ChoriChori(Indian) & Lonely No More(Pop)... Or to act out an advertisement promoting the Church Camp... hehez... *:D*
My group, under Uncle BakChai, and Lawrence Tern's group picked the MTV and Marcus' group got the advert... *:P*

The rehearsals were fun at first as the youth gathered to choreograph the dance moves to the compilation of eXcerpts from the songs... So it was finalized that the parents took the first song, followed by Thomas doing his famous solo, JieJie, Jesu & Aunty Sukuna taking ChoriChori, and the youth, Lonely No More(Rob Thomas)... *:)*
Well, things went on fine until the last rehearsal when I suddenly went into a foul mood... unforgiveness and issues from last December that hadn't really cleared up resurfaced and, yeah... *sigh* Glad I’ve taken control of myself now... something to add to my to-do list. Apologize to person offended... *sigh* mmm... fortunately the recording was alright, though... thanks to Shawn who accompanied me to the beach to 'let off steam'... *paiseh*
Mmm... Yeah... A memorable camp...

People I got to know more: Jeremy, Jolice, Janelle, Amanda, Fiona, Alicia, Rebecca, Shawn, Amos, Lydia, Thomas & JieJie Sheryl...
People I love even more: Mummi, Daddi, JieJie, MeiMei[although she's not here... poor girl, stuck at Pulau Ubin feeding mozziez... *bleahz!* *:P*]

Which reminds me, to update the count of mozzi bites again…
56. *argh* breakdown: left leg, 25... right leg, 18... left hand, 0... right hand, 13...
Wow... mozzies really like me, I guess... *bleahz!* *:P*
Aniweiz, I gotta rest...Gonna send my cousins to school tomorrow and the n go jogging with JieJie... hehez... *grinz* Nightz! *:)* btw, I just received a msg from someone... SWEET! Mmm... signing off!!

00:14:49
16th June 2005-06-16

P.S. i'm gonna overcome those two hurdles that PaPaGod tells me I will face! JiaYou, gurl... hehe... *:D*

-> stoical me <-

*:(* *:)*

i juz guess i'm nt cut out for it.. aniweiz, i sorta "deserve" it; placing Pre-U Sem meetingz above SFC Min Tym.. yeah..
well, juz a small tinge of dsaptmt bt i guess, idz nt de 1st tym i've felt diz wae regardin CCA diz yr.. hahaz.. yeah.. gurl, stae kewl, stae strong, kip that smile on ur face. PaPaGod has His divine plans for ya..

>hugz myself<, you stoicalgurl...

beloved 24

>hugz< reeli kewl frenz.. miz ya'll...

O0oh... *star*...

*yarkz* court shoes!!!

our photographer: Sebastz!!!

Eee... Bimbo caller... *frownz*

KEEFE!!! *grinz*

Wendy, Me & KahYee!! *:D*

JingDa... *:)*

ShuYing... *:)*

blk 171, #03-484... Bestest Roomies!! *:D*

three camps down, two more to go!

SFC Camp:- Faith Chasers [Joshua 1-5]
learnt alot -- faith assurance, faith food, faith unity, faith works...
reeli kewl camp. made frenz. played angel-mortal game. left one night earli to prepare for the next camp. i still do not know who my angel is. however my mortal knows me. she's too smart. figured it was me by the second letter. -.-''' haha... came earli for Pre-U Sem meetin on the last morning. so kewl. din miss the initiation. got my handprint on the banner. *:)*
people i love alot alot alot:
the SHEEEP [Shepherdess Cindy, Black Sheep [Black Sheep] Gloria, White Sheep Tedrick, Brown Sheep Byrant, Lamb Chop Andrew, Navy Sheep Jeremy, Pink Sheep Priscilla, Blue Sheep HuiRu]
by the way, i'm the Chrome Yellow Sheep... *:D*

Pre-University Seminar:- New Engagements, New Opportunities
reeli good panel discussions and some kewl parallel presentations... "Team SAJC" did the school proud!! personally, enjoid TJC's presentation... RJC's was informative and well-organised too... mmm... disappointed by some schools which were reputed to put up a good show every year... shan't mention which few.
kite flying was fun[WeiNgiap & wankers]. meeting up wiv eX-BBSSians in JJ was kewl[BingRen, Zheng Long, big baby Xuan Yu... hehe...]. chattin late into the night with old frenz reminded me of old times[Gabriel & Jeremy & Kah Yee].
people i love alot alot alot:
group 24 [gurlfren Shu Ying, wonderful Jing Da, tolerant roomie Wendy, optimistic Keefe, secret sharer Rachel, ditched Kah Yee, kewl dude Dave, big sister Merilyn, fun gurl Gwen, cheery Joyce, Raffles Khin, snapper Sebastz, small-eyes Hafiz, love-struck JunGuan, handsome Ali, patient Rekha, HwaChong Angie, full of potential Hazel, wanker Syed, poor thing Clarence, almost invisible Qi Yang, quiet ZhiWei...

CCK Youth Camp:- Alpha
being the leader of team 1, FISHIES, was good. won second place overall. was crowned "Miss Helpful" during the camp! haha... kewl, eh? *winkz* learnt alot... love my angel, ALICIA, and my mortal, SELENE!! haha... *:)*
people i love alot alot alot:
FISHIES [Joanne, Fiona, Naomi, Adam, Cassandra, Theophania & Alvin]

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fun aside, i gotta start studying for my MidYrs... -.-''' *sigh* then, another round of 'no tym to study'... *:(*

11/06/05 - 14/06/05 [CCK Family Camp! *:P*]
14/06/05 - 21/06/05 [Visit Relatives... *:S*]

boo! *:P*

hey everybody... i'll be away for quite a while so please refrain from complaining that my blog is stagnant, k? hehez... *bleahz!* *:P* O0oh... wanna hear where i will be? *;P*

28/05/05 - 30/05/05 [Saints For Christ (SFC) Camp!!! *grinz*]
30/05/05 - 03/06/05 [Pre-University Seminar *;)*]
04/06/05 - 06/06/06 [CCK Youth Alpha Camp!!! *yayz*]

yeah... then i'll come home and try to cram as much of the J1 syllabus into my head before setting off again!!! *argh*

11/06/05 - 14/06/05 [CCK Family Camp! *:P*]
14/06/05 - 20/06/05 [Visit Relatives... *:S*]

yeah... and then i'm back again to do more revision... *sigh* confirmed liao... gonna be bringing my Lecture Notes for the last two events as i really hopethink that i might be able to find some free time to myself during then to study... -.-'''

O0oh!! & to all my friends, try not to flood my hotmail inboxes, okay? *:O* anything you wanna send, you could mail it to:
zenihs_nus_ez@yahoo.com.sg or
stoicalgurl@gmail.com...
thankew... *:)*
O0oh! & also, try not to message me, okay? hehe... overseas sms veri eXpensive wor... hahaz... well, to all peepz, enjoi the holidaez, yeah? dun plae too much, though... must study for Common Tests!! JIA YOU wor... *:P* mmm... take kare, God Bless & C ya'll wen skl reopens!! buah-buaiz... *:D*

wiv lotsa luv,
the stoicalgurl... *winkz*

bball rawkd! *grinz*

today is the first day ever since term started whereby have actually just let my hair down and slack... well, okay, not really slack larh... but found time to hang out with my secondary school friends... *:)* met ChoonWee jiejie, Nixon, Isaac, Alex, XueWen, KangLu, Madeline, Derek, i dunno, i dunno, i dunno & i dunno[so sorry i don't know their names... they're friends brought by my friends] to play basketball... *:)*

haha... as usual, they were all late... *bleahz!* *:P* had been online gaming until 5am this morning and so, yeah... haha... oh, well... we had arranged to meet up at the Jurong Entertainment Centre's MacDonalds at nine in the morning... Jiejie still reminded mi not to be late some more... haha... in the end, we left for the basketball court only at 10!! hahaz... so, u can guess that i was SO lonely sitting at Mac's, waiting for them... *bleahz!* * *:P* haha... oh, well...

honestli, i wasn't expecting this crowd to come... initially when Jiejie asked me to go out with her and her friends, i was expecting, TatFai, Isaac, Ivan, KangLu, Nigel... yeah... not so much of the rest... but still, it was fun playing with them... *:D* when we got to the court where we had intended to play, half the court was occupied by another bunch of people, better players than us, and the other half was occupied by some 'outside-school' team training... saw a friend who was in SAJC's basketball team... this kinda cute small built guy in 05s57, i think... he didn't see me, though... hehez... *:D*

well, we eventually moved on to another court which had only one 'functioning' rim... better than nothing, so we split into teams and just played... *:D* mmm... you must be wondering why all of a sudden i have decided to play basketball? hehe... well, it seems like i haven't had proper PE for almost a month and i just CANNOT STAND the feeling of being unfit... so, yeah... when Jiejie asked me out for a game, i quickly accepted... thank God, mummi allowed me out... but not with condition, though... hahaz... so, last night and this morning, i hurriedly tidied my clothes drawers so that i could get OUT... *:P* mmm... KorKor also asked me out to catch a movie wiv his classmates[they had an eXtra ticket!] but unfortunately, i had plans to run some errands with Mummi so... *sharkz* hadta miss that... *:(* oh, well... *sigh* basketball's better than nothing, right? *bleahz!*
[in the end, i din go out wiv Mummi 'cuz she decided she didn't feel like it... -.-''']

mmm... back to the game... it was really enjoyable playing in the team with Derek... they were really nice, encouraging me to think positive and shoot... haha... gave me a really sillie nickname... -.-''' "Sha-mantha" "Xiao Sha" "Xiao San"... 'cuz they wanted me to try a three pointer... hahaz... i thought it was just OBVIOUS that i wouldn't be able to do so larh... but... hey! eventually, after all their cheering and encouragement, i DID! *grinz* was so kewl... *:)* they're really nice people... *:D*

o0oh... when the other teams were playing a match, Nixon & i went to shoot some hoops... 'played' ABC... was funni tryina shoot into a crooked hoop[was damaged by three guys using that court earlier...] but i still enjoid myself... *:)* Nixon seems like a nice guy too... hehe... wah... he's a good player wor...

well, overall, i had a REALLY REALLY fun tym... only sad thing is that we started late and i had to leave early... *:(*
oh, well... mmm... later, my family's going OUT fer dinner!! kewl, huh? haha... haven't ate out in some time... *:P* dining with the 'Lim's!Uncle John, Aunti Doris, Shawn & Fiona!! *grinz* yeah... hehe...
okiez... gonna stop here... take kare to those reading... God Bless ya!! *:)*

-->stoic? ME.<--

Simple Plan: "Welcome To My LifeWeek"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

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Sadly, that's how i feel this few weeks.. i knoe it just isn't the usual me, but then again.. oh, well.. i've just been so stressed.. discouraged.. frustrated.. i understand that i'm working within really tight datelines and that those 'above' me are equally busy but i just somehow feel that perhaps, progress COULD be faster if everyone did played their part.. *sigh*
Maybe it's just me.. thing's aren't going the way i want them to.. however, PaPaGod has been really gracious to me this week and i'm just so unappreciative of it.. *argh* what is wrong with me?!!

Oh, well.. .. ..
Dear PaPaGod, I'm really sorry for taking You for granted.. Please continue to fill me with Your Grace and Strength and LOVE.. Amen.

I feel better. Emotionally..
Physically, i think i'm falling sick..
Gotta learnt to sleep earlier.. I owe my body at least twenty hours of sleep over the past week.. But i'm glad that i've got someone i love sustaining me, uplifting me.. OTHER than my Mummi, Daddi, JieJie, MeiMei. KorKor..*:)*

*sigh* i've got a Chinese Essay to write now.. *yarkz* oh, well.. hope i dun spend another FOUR hours to write it and end up failing like the previous tym.. *:'(*

mmm.. take kare, all of you, dear friends.. i sincerely apologise if any of you have been getting the brunt of my impatience.. please be tolerant of me for the next month or so..

btw, this week's CAMPAIGNING WEEK!! All the best to Kenneth and Teenesh!! hehez.. *:D* Will be supportin ya guyz!! Do S54 proud, yeah? *winkz*

ladeedum~*

hey all, thanks for all your encouragement! i'm really all right... *:)*
c ya'll tml and all the best for tml's test! *bleahz!* *:P*

lalala~*

it's a happy day
and i thank God for the weather[btw, SA won RJ in soccer today!! *grinz*]
it's a happy day
and i'm living it for my Lord
it's a happy day
and things are gonna get better
living each day by the promises in God's Word...

oh, and SAJC's Concert Band did us proud with yet another GOLD with HONOURS... *:D*
that's all for today... got to rewrite the Pre-U Sem script & prepare for a Bio Test... FOUR huge chapters wor... *yikes*

*stressed* = desserts spelt backwards...

just had the interview for Council yesterday... honestly, i have no idea how i fared but personally, i know i made a major boo boo... *bleahz!* *:P* was asked to sing the first stanza of our school hymn... hahaz... nothing tough since almost EVERYONE knows i LOVE croak singing... hahaz... so what happened? well, i got nervous nearing the end of the stanza & i juz forgot the last two lines!! man, what is wrong with me?!! haha... oh, well... i tried my best... *:P*

O0oh... just wanna say THANKEW to certain wonderful people who have encouraged me during those nerve-wrecking moments... hehe... first of all, my family larh... hahaz... Mummy, Daddy, JieJie, MeiMei. Korkor... i know they have been praying really hard for me... *:)* TatFai, May, Ian Tan, Joshua Thia, Daniel, Colin Goh, PeiCi, WeiHao, Benjamin, Jeremy, Joel, Shaun Gan, Zhen Xiong, Derek & many others... *:)* yeah... well, whatever the outcome, i will believe and trust in our PaPaGod... *:)*

well, today? hehe... went to visit the OCS HQ... it was fun!!! had a cute and humourous "tour guide", going by the name of "Wee"... *:D* mmm... hung around the S51 peepz most of the time 'cause it seemed that my classmates had already a group of friends from other classes and i didn't want to be so 'eXtra'... hehez... yeah... so basically, i had a fun time with Guna, Nat & Dinesh... shall not elaborate... *:P* yeah... came home late and i now have got to do Pre-U Sem work... *sighz* gotta learn to be less stressed... take things easy... *:P*

O0oh... To my friends out there, i wanna apologise if i've been ignoring ya or been 'PMS'ing... *paiseh* thanks for being patient with me... wish to spend more time with ya'll... well, take kare... God Bless & nite nitez... *:P*

*yux*, *yuckz*, *YARKZ*.

i finally finished my PI!! *whew*
juz wanna sae thankew to Victor fer helpin mi get my thoughtz organised & gettin tingz started... *grinz*

STILL feelin sick... *sighz* it's been two weeks already and my horrible cold+sorethroat has yet to leave me... *bleahz!* *>:(* oh, well... this sorta eXplains why i dun really lykta tok on the phone, kae? sorry guyz... not that i dun wanna chat... juz feelin yucki... O0oh! & oso, dun sms mi unless idz impt, yeah? hahaz... my bill this month'z gonna burst.. *sharkz*

boo! *grinz*

o0oh.. i LUV diz song!! *grinz*
hope u guyz lyk it too..
idz called: "Testify To Love" by Avalon, i believe..
hehez.. *grinz*
enjoi! *:)*

Courtesy of Ms Yeo, 05S54's beloved CT!! hehez.. *:D*

*grinz* FIVE FOOOUUR!!!! hehez.. *:D*

Act DAO worz.. *:O*

Sport's Day 2005.. Team 05S54 & our marvellous supporters!! *grinz*

EIGHT IS GOOD... *:P*

boo! *grinz*
hehe... i know i haven't been blogging in quite a while... really sorry!!

kinda caught up with school work and Pre-U Sem... but i'm not complaining... *:)* it IS fun and a privilege to be participating in this pretty prestigious event... *:)* mmm... the main bulk of the work is done BEFORE the actual camp, though... that explains the weekly Wednesday meetings i have after school... *:P* well, basically there's not really much to do now but to prepare the 15mins presentation our SAJC team will be presenting to the other JCs... in a way, it is pressurising because other school's may be sending JC2 students so we might look immature beside them? well, i hope not... because i know that everyone is putting in lotsa effort into the Presentation AND the Case Study... *:P*

well, anyway, HIGHLIGHT of today, 29th April 2005...[Oh! by the way, it's Ian Lau's birthday!! So let me digress a little... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO IAN!! *grinz*] okay, back to what i was saying, it was SAJC's Sport's Day today!! yeah!! haha... i almost forgot about it until last night when my class rep asked me whether she should bring the House-Tee or PE attire... well, anyway, i was so stoned last night doing my Chinese Compo!! Spent a few hours on it because i wanted to give the teacher a good impression... hehe... *:D* one of my New Year Resolution's to not be blacklisted by my Chinese tutor!! *bleahz!* *:P*

o0opz! i've strayed away from my main topic again!! *yikez* okay. about the Sport's Day events, they were reduced to just two events. The first, an inter-class[eXcept classes with no enough girls or guys...] 10 x 200m relay... So each class is to send five girls and five guys to run...
05S54's team included: Roxanne, SheMin, Diana, Suhaila, Louis, XinYu, Kel Ley, Kenneth & Teenesh[our team Captain], and our reserves, KangTing[who did run after all...], Jeremy & Nicholas... *:)*
the second event's a teacher's relay race too... don't know the distance they covered, though... *:P*

well, our class trashed all our competitors in the heats... Owe most of it to Roxanne & SheMin who helped us gain the lead... The guys weren't any slow either... They helped the team sustain the gap between them and the runner behind them...
FANTASTIC JOB, GUYS[+GURLZ...]!!
unfortunately, one of our treasured members sprained her ankle and we had to call in the reserve... perhaps our spirits dipped a little and we did not seem as confident as before, however, it was during this time when i truly saw the unity and "looking out for one another"-spirit in the team... everyone was encouraging each other... [yes! even the guys!] & Melody, being her usual bubbly, caring self, got some of our classmates down from the Sports Gallery to cheer us up & help us get drinks... *:)*

when the results were announced that 05S54 made it into the A-Division, we were still *blur blur*... Didn't know how many more races we were to have... but we just ran our hearts out, competing with the other top 7 teams... *:P* It was really cool that our senior class, 04S54 was there cheering so loudly for us... really brought smiles to the faces of the team... *:)*
well, the importance of encouragement.
mmm... well, during the finals we did not do as well, given the fact that we had a not so good lane... [yeah! Roxanne hurt her knee while running because of the cracks on the track! i think she might have "half-stepped" into a hole...] also, we were feeling fatigue from the previous race... but we tried our best to complete the race... in the end, we emerged last...

but one thing i have to say is that:
"through the entire eXperience, we may have encountered a short-term loss. but we surely had a long-term gain..."
as my friend mentioned in a text message:
"Success is the measure of effort, not result..."

haha... i forgot to say that although we emerged 8th, we still received a medal each for being one of the top runners in the school... *:D* yeah... kewl, huh? *grinz*

O0oh... back to more serious stuff... have gotta do my Preliminary Ideas for Project work now... *sigh* something i don't enjoy especially when my head does not seem to be full of ideas at the moment... oh, well... above all the Pre-U Sem preparations, piling tutorials and jitterbugs i'm feeling regarding the Interviews for Students' Council, there IS something to look forward to! YES!! this coming Wednesday, 05S54's senior class will be meeting up with us to reveal the Angels to the Mortals!! yeah, man... hahaz... wonder how my Mortal is like in person... he/she seems sweet from the replies i've received... *:P*

alright... i have to stop procastinating! going back to do work after i ask a favour of those who love me... hehe... *:D* please pray for me as i go for the interview on Thursday, 5th May... Have to report to the venue at 5.20pm but my interview slot's only scheduled to take place at 7.15pm! yeah... think i might be nervous, nearing that time but for now, please don't forget me! hehe... yeah... better go!! take kare, my dear friends... God Bless & Good Nitez... *:)*

SAJC Uniform!! Look so smart in it!! *grinz*

eye lurff ewe...

i luv ya PaPaGod...

artificial beauty..

I Am Amazed...

I am amazed at Your love
I am amazed at Your mercy
That the God of forever
Would share it together with me

I am amazed that You chose me
I am amazed that You show me
All the love of a Father
Taking me farther
Than anything i've ever seen

I am amazed.
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A song i learnt to appreciate with sign language.
Reminds me so, of a beloved country called Thailand.
I miss that place...

priorities...

started off...
intend to run for Student's Council...
you reckon i will make it?
i really have the passion just
to lead, to serve. Let's face it...

i've always liked to welcome others,
to plan an orientation
but without a vote
much less, a nomination
how on earth will i make it?

now...
now phase one is over
and i feel the competition...
i heard someone has gotten more than
twenty-five nominations!

and to add on to my worries
are that the candidates are many...
i refer to those within my House,
yes, just us, from Hose, only!

the dilemma...
a friend probed me to
think again, my choice of CCA...
am i putting earthly desires
before Him in any way?

yet, then again, i ask myself
what i really want to do
my heart is torn between,
dear me, choices i have, two.

the solution...
i have decided to leave it all
to PaPaGod above...
He will reveal to me His will
in which i'll serve with LOVE.

friendship

eXactly a month from now and it'll be the birth date of someone whom i was really close to... *sigh* why is it so hard to rebuild a broken friendship?

someone said something... is it really true?
"it's difficult to get too close to friends because either they start to discover your bad points [and perhaps not like you] or you start to notice their's and eventually end up not knowing whether to tell them or just ignore the little things that get to you."

well, friendship... a complicated issue/thing to define... i admit that it's hard to build a true strong friendship... it takes time... love... [even money..!] but i believe it's worth it all...
what's most important is to ACCEPT.

SASJS guyz... *aww*

Cathedral Night a.k.a. An Evening of Scared Sacred Songs went well... *:)*
Thankew to all de fellow SFCians who came down to support us... hehe... *:D*
We all sang pretty well... *:D*

O0oh! & congrats to: Aloysius, Andrew Fam, Anna, Cindy, Evangeline, Yvonne, Gloria, Jayce, BIG Joel, small Joel, Roy, SawHoon & me... We got recognised by Mrs Lim who insisted we do an encore for Chapel... Aiyoh... Skari...

Sidetrack, I'm gonna miss those SAJS boys!! Man, they're all so kewt & their voices just melted my heart... *aww...*
Andre -> my cute, mischievous guy...
ANDREW -> my sweet angelic soloist...
Damon Ong -> my grow-up-sure-YanDao dude...
Sherwin -> my intelligent choir boy... [this year PSLE le wor... better studi hard!!]

*sigh* oh, well... there's always next year when we share the same campus... hehez... *:D*
o0oh! by the way, to everyone out there, i am NOT a paedophile... -.-'''

*:)*

o0oh... i found out howta spell his name le... it's DerrickDEREK... hehez... yeah... *bleahz!* *:P*
aniweiz, will be having Cathedral Night this friday... NEED to borrow black court shoes and a white long-sleeved blouse... DIE... oh, well... anyway, better preserve my vocal chords for that special night! *:P*

hehez... highlight of the day:
was nominated for council today!!
special thanks to that person who shall remain anonymous... *beamz*

A Song I Will Not Forget...

High- Lighthouse Family
When you're close to tears remember
Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darkest than December
What's ahead is a different color
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was you and me

Cause we are gonna be
Forever you and me
You will
Always keep it flying high in the sky
Of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high
High high high high

LIFE CONCERT RAWKED!!!

LIFE CON '05 RAWKZ!!! *grinz*
man, all our hard work, sweat, lack of sleep and fervent prayer has paid off... *:)* would like to report that there were at least 6 salvations and 27 rededications... *:)* kewl, huh? well, i'm just full of joy 'cause my classmate, Jeremy and beloved BWENDDARRR accepted Christ!! *:D* yeah... man, don't know if anyone can understand my emotions...

anyway, the concert went on pretty smoothly... *:)* thanks to first of all, PaPaGod... Good management aka Mentor Shirley... the powerful Ps Joshua... the dynamitic Band... the awesome Sound... the super enthu LIGHTS COM... the friendly Ushers... the hardworking Logistics Com... the lazy Slackers Com... and last but NOT least, the Multimedia Comm!!! *grinz*
yeah... everything was just SO kewl... *:)* the entire auditorium just rawked!!! am so glad that some of my friends came... *:)* hope they enjoyed the concert... but most of all, i pray that they were blessed by it... *:)*

well, i learnt something during the concert... Andrew Fam just rawks at doin projection!! there sorta was a moment whereby the screen would suddenly just irritatingly blank out and i initially thought that it was due to a loose cable... so we tightened the screw but... yeah... the problem wasn't solved until my wonderful co-partner decided to try using the school's projector cable... within about ten seconds, he just swapped the cable and the rest of the night went on without a glitch! yeah... so kewl, huh? *:O* totally admire him... *:)* my true 'Shi Fu' worz... hehez... *:D*

o0oh! something else i discovered!!! Evangeline[our dear 'lil P&W leader], Choo Qi[2nd keyboardist] & Joni[1st keyboardist] are SO mean!!! dey tricked me larh!! bluffed me about the Band's dresscode... -.-''' dunno what SCHOOL UNIFORM AND KNEE-HIGH NET STOCKINGS WITH GURLS HAVING WHITE SCARFS AND PINK POLKADOTS AND GUYS HAVING GREEN SCARFS AND PURPLE POLKADOTS!!! -.-''' i actually believed them larh... i was seriously thinking that SFC's dress sense is like... so disgusting larh... *pukez* oh, well...
anyway... other than that, they're rather kewl people... *:)* still remember some of the sillie keyboard-side jokes... hehez... Daniel's "Saggums"... *gRoSsIfIeD*

well, after the concert, chatted with CGL Lukas, had debrief and prayer and clearing up, then DINNER!!! hehe... took us quite long to decide where to go... SFC Pres. Jonathan Tan finally settled for Harbour Front's Macs... *:P* mmm... kinda glad that I went... *:)* got to chat with Derek/Derrick[frm Cat. High] for a while... *:)* [so sorri i dunno hwta spell!! *paiseh*] mmm... enjoyed picking at Saw Hoon's food, listening to the coversations around me... THEN Daddy says i gotta go home... no fair... Brother got to stay out longer... he has a later curfew... and anyway, i was to have two important Pre-U Sem interviews to conduct with my team[which we DID] today... *:P*unfair! *sigh* oh, well...

O0oh... let me share a little about the interviews today!!! first one was at 9am, Mr Nigel Phang... Director of Human Resource, International Enterprise Singapore... The interview went on pretty well... he was friendly, responding to what we asked and was even well prepared with a slide show presentation to answer our questions!! he didn't HAVE to go through all that trouble, you know... anyway, overall, it was fruitful... *:)* the only thing is that the interview lasted slightly over 2 hours!! yeah... pretty long, i would say... *:P*

nXt, the team went to Bugis Junction for lunch... *:)* hehe... then to The Coffee Bean to discuss what we gathered... by the time we ended discussion, it was already 12 and that meant it would be meaningless to go back to school for any lectures... eventually, we found ourselves with three hours of nothing to do... so many things[like arcading & pooling] we wanted to do yet was restricted by the school uniform we wore... *bleahz!* *:P* well, then the five of us[ms cher hadta run some errands] all trooped to the Giant Supermarket... hehe...

kinda amusing but anyway, we actually SHOPPED and by the time we finished, it was just in time to meet Ms Cher for our nXt interview at 4pm... this time, it was a female, Ms Tricia Huang... Deputy Director of the Ministry of Trade and Industry... well, i would say that she's pretty young to be holding such a high post... we speculate that she's a scholarship receipient, that's why... but anyway, this interview was... well, too formal for my liking... well, perhaps in comparison to the one with Mr Phang[who by the way, allowed us to call him Nigel], it seemed
pretty tense... ok, actually, the impression she gave me was that she wasn't eXactly expecting US. her first sentence when she entered the room was: "You all are so young"... i think she was eXpecting J2s or maybe her secretary didn't inform her that it was US who would be coming... that aside, her answers to our questions were mainly textbook answers and she was careful, yet polite not to make any comments or eXpress her own opinion... so, in a way, the interview was not as fruitful as the one before... nevertheless, it was interesting and kewl to meet someone holding such power... *:)*

by the way, did i mention the sillie things that happened during the interviews?
first interview sillie thing #1, my stomach growled TWICE and it was so loud that Huric, MayHwee and Ms Cher heard it!! i wonder about Mr Phang because he was nearer to me than Huric was to me!!! oh, dear...
first interview sillie thing #2, KyawKyaw forgot to switch his hp to silent mode and it rang!!! seemed like a MAJOR boo boo but Mr Phang graciously pretended as if nothing happened... *whew*
second interview sillie thing #1, going through the security sensors in order to allow us entry into the Treasury building... the girls, KyawKyaw & Ms Cher all went through problem-free... as for Darryl & Huric... *beep-beep-beep* went the sensor... uh oh... *tsk tsk tsk* i had gone in just before them so i turned round to assess the situation! *chey* ur belts larh... so guess wad the two sillie guys did? they started removing their belts and then they walked through, only to meet an amused security officer's face, telling them they didn't have to strip... -.-''' hahaz... oh,
well... *:P*
second interview sillie thing #2, #3 & #4, DARRYL!!! aiyoh... this guy was hearing things! seated on his left was KyawKyaw and on his right was our interviewee, Ms Huang... of all things he THOUGHT he heard, it was [SUPPOSEDLY] KyawKyaw's ungrowling stomach!! apparently he found it amusing and get this straight, GIGGLED each time he "heard" it!! by the second time he laughed, the interviewee turned to him and he, through fits of giggles, "eXplained" his reason for giggling... she gave a polite laugh and offered him the coffee/milo that was in the meeting room... he declined... well, that was alright until the last time he laughed again... was trying really hard to suppress it so the constipated look on his face made ME and all those on the opposite side of the table[which were the females...] giggled... even Ms Huang... oh, well... Darryl, ah, Darryl... Didn't it occur to you that those sounds COULD be coming from either YOUR OWN tummi or perhaps that of Ms Huang?!!! hahaz... man... dunno if i should thank him for lightening the mood of the interview or strangle him for giving Ms Huang the impression that we're just a bunch of immature kids... *sigh*
oh, well... she'll be meeting another batch of JC students from Serangoon, i think... should be JC2s... better behaved, i believe... hope they have a better eXperience than what we had!! gotta go... eXhausted... buaiz!!! *:P*