amused.

o0oh!! forgot to mention just now... i still cannot believe that i've "found" a "long lost friend"!!!or, umm... he found me... hahaz... *bleahz!* *:P*
its a LONG story but i'll try to cut it short...best friend: Isaac, classmates with this particular friend's brothers(twins!)Z intro-ed me to the brothers and eventually this friend of mine who happens to be of my age.by the way, all this took place when i was in, i tink sec 2... this means... umm... lets see... 3+ years ago?then we sorta lost touch, eXcept for the occasional online chats...
out of the blue, he msged me last saturday night just to ask me if i was in SA...turns out he's here too... infact, just three classes away from me!! -.-'''
but the crasiest thing is WHY he suddenly msged me...apparently on the last night of the Orientation, Joel Ong[RBS boi...] hu happens to be his classmate, introduced us!!! but the thing is that it didn't occur to me that this SHAUN was the one i've sorta lost contact with for so long!! haha... oh, well...he looks better now, though... yeah... the second first impression he gave me, BEFORE i even knew he was him... *bleahz!* *:P*
haha... man, i'm amused... oh, well... better stop or others will b thinkin too much... -.-'''buaiz! *:D*

man, back to normal lessons... *:P*

man, i NEED MY SLEEP!!! sense black rings growing around my eyes... *sighz*anyway, yeah... i know... i haven't blogged in a while so... haha... here i am... *bleahz!* *:P*

first of all, i hafta sae tt i've begun to love my new class!! 05s54...[CGtutor: Ms Yeo] yeah... the last trip sci class but it doesn't matter because we all RAWK!! *grinz*there's Lukas[CGL, actually from 04s51...], Mayeesha, Anuaar, Huang Yu, Teenesh, Kang Ting, Xuan Ming, She Min, Jeremy, Jing Yi, Kel Ley, ShiYing, Suhaila, Ng Min, Diana, Linda, Melody, Roxanne, Hui Ling, Larissa, Kenneth, Chong Ming, Nicholas, Michelle, Hui Shan, Grace, Katherine , XinYu, HongXuan & me!! it's dominated by the gurls!!! hehez... *grinz* however, i have to admit that out of the 30 people here, i cannot match 3 names to their faces!! *paiseh* nevermind... i will have opportunities to get to know my class better... *:)*

o0oh... by the way, one activity that was organised during the Orientation2[where i sorta over-eXerted my calf muscles so its now hurtin like mad... *:(*] was the "Meet the Seniors session"... was surprised to find WangTing in my senior class... yeah... so i wasn't too umm... uncomfortable... *:P* well, their CG tutor is Mr Newbie... one of the teachers in the discipline committee wor... anyway, that's besides the point...
04s54 seems like a really fun class... *:)* i think it was nice of the girls to propose playing the "Angel-Mortal" game... yeah... so, i've got a male j2 "mortal"... haf written to him already(since today's the dateline...) and i wonder if he'll reply... *bleahz!* *:P* well, that's pretty much all i will reveal...

*sighz* proper lessons have begun... better get into the studying mode as soon as possible!! *:P*

o0oh... sidetrack... i miss my OG31... *sighz* ESPECIALLY my dear Chauffer SzuXiang, "Shortie" Shane, Jason Y, TIGGIE Francesca, PANDA-aka-SX-stealer Josephine, Hawtt ba-beh WenHsin, Peace, ChingTung, [Kyaw]2 & BWENDDARRR... kk... i better not sound like an idiot here... *:P* but i honestly still luv ya'll...

anyway, here's my "new month[not new year] resolution for April2005":
I SHALL TRY AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE TO NOT BE A COMPLAINING BRAT.
in other words, learn to be appreciative of what i have...

Induction..? *:S*

"Operation 2-ble I."
to INITIATE.
to INSTIL FEAR
.F-> Foster
E-> Endurance
A-> Appreciation
R-> Respect

well, the induction's over and unfortunately, i still do not see what the teachers/ PE Department were trying to say when they included the fostering aspect in the day camp that just ended today... as for endurance, i guess that was relevant, especially after the many times we had to hold in pumping position, the many irritating jumping jacks, the silly-looking physically draining eXercises, AND the many many burpies... [having terrible muscle ache now... *sighz* perhaps that's why i'm so environmentally unfriendly... *paiseh*] appreciation? well, i'm sure that the ENTIRE OG31 appreciates food now, with the semi-starvation the school made us suffer... food rations! biscuits and H2O... *bleahz!* *:P* respect! umm... i don't know... nothing new... perhaps, it's already instilled in me... *:D*

had some photo shoot today for Daddi's graduation from college... please do not ask me what he was studying... i don't exactly understand myself! *paiseh* anyway, hadta leave SA early, change into a shorter-than-usual SKIRT and a GIRLY blouse, reached the college, took a few photographs and it was over! managedta get back to SA for the activities not too late... *:P* [fortunately, i late enough to miss the 1000 accumulative pumping that the OG hadta do... *paiseh*] more physicaly draining activities and then, photo taking... *:)*

overall, was not bad...
looking forward with MUCH anticipation for the actual Orientation by the Student Council, though... yeah... it's tml!!! yayz! *grinz* okay, time to sigh off... take kare, God Bless, nite nitez! *:)*

understand me.

something different.

Definition
stoic
adjective (ALSO stoical) SLIGHTLY FORMAL
determined not to complain or show your feelings, especially when something bad happens to you:
We knew she must be in pain, despite her stoic attitude.
He showed a stoic resignation towards his fate.
Local people were stoical about the damage caused by the hurricane.

stoic
noun [C] SLIGHTLY FORMAL
someone who does not complain or show their emotions:
My father is a stoic by nature and found it hard to express his grief when my mother died.

stoically
adverb SLIGHTLY FORMAL
She listened stoically as the guilty verdict was read out.
Stoically, and with great determination, the people set about rebuilding the village.

stoicism
noun [U] SLIGHTLY FORMAL
the quality of experiencing pain or trouble without complaining or showing your emotions:
He endured the pain of his wounds with great stoicism.

stoical.
ME.

sorri.. written long tym ago but never posted! *paiseh*

ever felt super super SUPER tired before? *:O* well, i have... juz last nigh-- no, wait... it was this morning... had overnight prayer meeting at Church... my first, and it was certainly enjoyable but the thing is that i just HAD to be stubborn the evening before and do my work for the up and coming Live Concert at SA, ignoring my mum's advice to get some rest before the event... yeah... what happened, i shall eXplain later... *bleahz!* *:P*

well, anyway, after skl yesterdae, i went out with my OG mates & OGL!!! hehez... *grinz* well, SawHoon'z block tests were over so, hehez... yeah... with such a BIG burden off her shoulders, u can't blame her for having the urge to go out and relaXXX!!! she umm... hehez... [bad councillor...] brought us to HarbourFront to makan[illegally...]... Well, in total there were 7 of us... Herself[mum], Jason Yeung[big boss' wife], Szu Xiang[chauffer], Josephine[panda], Francesca[tiggie], Peace[big sister] and mi[housekeeper]! *bleahz!* *:P* initially we were about to eat at the food court... then the oh-so-rich Jason decided on behalf of us that we should eat at Coffee Club!! hahaz... we didn't eXactli have a choice 'cuz he already entered the eatery AND asked for a table of 7 while the rest were still outside debating whether or not to eat there... -.-''' well, without a choice, we all umm... decided that the only items on the menu worth eating[within our budget, actually...] was the DESSERTS... hehez... all had a slice of cake each... kinda sad, right? oh, well... that's what you get when not-so-rich people hang out with richer people... *bleahz!* *:P*

yeah... well, Wen Hsin joined us later, we chit chatted for quite some time, ate more PROPER food[if you consider hotdogs and icecream proper...] at Orange Julius', saw two middle-aged men holding hands at Harbour Front, chit chatted some more, then left for our separate ways... Jason, Szu Xiang, Josephine, Saw Hoon, Peace and i headed for school... tennis practice, band auditions, band auditions, SAJC Saintierra '05 2nd Orientation meeting, band auditions, and collect Pre-U Sem work & watch bball match between our school team and the graduated students... man, they were good!!!! although i didn't stay to watch the results, i was pretty impressed by both teams... *:)* as most know, i like basketball, anyhow, anyway... whether i play any well or not! *bleahz!* *:P*

did my work, did some sketchings for the publicity of the Youth Camp this year, watched the match, waited for my belived daddi to fetch me home... *:)* yeah... then it was bathe, dinner, typing out the lyrics for the Live Concert multimedia stuff, rushed off to Church... Maundy Thursday Overnight Prayer meeting... Sort of a time for relfections for Good Friday and Easter Sunday... well, that's basically it... the meeting went like this: [Praise & Worship session, sharing about the direction in which the leaders of the different ministries would like the Church to move...]x4...yeah... hehez... was kinda encouraging to see many people[relatively larh... because the Church population is already so small... hahaz...] turn up, especially the youth: Alvin, Daniel, Fiona, Ian, Jesu, Jomel, Joshua, Justin, Salina, Sarah, Shawn, Thomas & mi... hehez... that's almost half the youth... *bleahz!* *:P* so, imagine our ACTUAL size... *:D*

so, anyway, guess what?!! i fell asleep after the last P&W session, when Aunti Magdeline was talking about Missions... hehez... *paiseh* Only woke up when everything was over... only because Wesley nudged me... *bleahz!* *:P* oh, well... i WAS alert more than 75% of the time wor... so you have to give me credit for that... it IS my first ever overnight prayer meeting, anyway... yeah... so it all ended this morning and by the time i reached home, was nearly 630am... hahaz... oh, well... slept till well, now...

so here ends my eXperience of grouchiness after lack of sleep... lesson learnt: take mummi's advice... she knows what's best...

not a bad dae at all... *grinz*

guess wad?!!! tawt i wld b dateless todae but... NO!!! hehez... *:D* my beloved Cindy & Colin asked mi out!!! yayz!!! three cheerz fer dem!!! *grinz*

aniweiz, it was reeli so last minute... all the plans were initiated last nite and onli finalised this morning!! hahaz... either wae, it was kewl... *:)* we went to Changi to umm... see airplanes and umm... hehez... umm... stardi... yeah... i sed stardi... *bleahz!* *:P*

mmm... yeah... i knoe diz soundz so tootified but in my entire 7-8 years of residence in Singapore, diz ish the FIRST tym i've actualli attempted "eXploring" Changi... hehez... *paiseh* umm... but aniweiz, wiv a frenli, energetic tourguide lyk Cindy... nah... i din hafta worri abt being bored or gettin lost[sth tt i m VERI capable of doing *paiseh*]... *:)*

hehez... well, we DID do sum wrk... hehez... yeah... & ttz juz abt all i m goina sae abt 2dae BUT, it was fun hangin out wiv dem, gettin to knoe more abt dem... afta all, idz onli de SECOND tym we've met!! but de surprising ting iz tt idz easi to get along wiv dem... yeah... dey're reeli kewl ppl... *grinz* onli ting is that Colin still owez mi a testimonial!! hehez... *bleahz!* *:P*

O0ohoso wanna annouce to the world[wait... actuali onli to dose hu read my blog... *bleahz!* *:P*] that Cindy is NOT fat... if she is, wad am i?!! obese?!!! hehez... aniweiz, o0oh... i realised 2dae tt Colin can b quite sweet... hahaz... actualli thought of waitin fer mi for my train to cme... [now here cues for the *aww...*] hahaz... yeah... told ya dey're nice ppl... aniweiz, >hugz< Cindy & >frenli punch< Colin... *:D*

yep! mi gonna stop my entry here 2dae... btw, postingz out 2dae... din feel much cuz i'm staying in SA... hehez... *:D* kinda glad tt KS managedta get into his first choice: Optometry in SP... Minzee: Sci stream in AC... EH, his second choice: Sci stream in NJ... TF: Business IT in SP... for the rest i didn't mention, it duzen min tt i haf forgotten ya, k? i still luv ya'll all the same... take kare & God Bless!! >hugz<

nite nitez... *:)*

dun!

boo! *:P*finali watched "I Am Sam"... umm... man, i'm abit embarrassd2 sae diz but i cried!!! few tymz summore... *paiseh* umm... dunno y i'm suddenli gettin so emo abt stuff... *paiseh* guess the onli comfort i haf after knowin i cried iz that i'm assured i haf a heart... *bleahz!* *:P*
oh, well... aniweiz, diz ish gonna b a rather long entry cuz i've gotta do a summary & reflectionz on de movie i've watched, yeah...
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here goes:
Basically this heartwarming movie tells of how a family of two stick together. Right from the beginning, one can already sense the binding love within this father-daughter relationship.

The story starts off with the birth of a girl by the name of Lucy Diamond Dawson to a homeless woman, Rebecca, and a man with the intellectual capacity around that of a 7 year old. Apparently, Rebecca was not one to commit and thus left the helpless man to raise the child on his own.

This mildly autistic father is Sam Dawson – the main character of the movie. Who, with the help of his neighbor-cum-Lucy’s piano tutor and godmother, Annie Cassell, is able to simultaneously manage working at Starbucks and bringing up his precious little daughter. Another contributing factor to his sanity is the financial and emotional support his four other buddies have provided.

The complications only arise when Lucy turns seven and begins going to school. Initially, she copes well with the workload until one day when she realizes that her intellectual capabilities have surpassed that of her father. Owing to the circumstances that have taught her how to be sensitive, she starts to pretend that she is unable to read the difficult words in her English texts. The behavior she exhibited in school was a cause of concern to her teachers, leading to observation and eventually the diagnosis that she was “literally afraid to learn”.

Due to his disabilities, a worker at the Department of Child and Family Services (DCFS) decides that Sam is unable to provide the best for Lucy and as a result, takes her away from him, placing her under foster-care, only allowing him two monitored visits a week.

Meanwhile, Sam manages to get a lawyer to fight for him, proving he is perfectly capable of supporting and nurturing Lucy despite his inadequacies. However, many obstacles come his way. For example, the mental pressure the plaintiff’s attorney exerts on the fragile mind of Sam, the many compound questions that bombarded him to create confusion, the increasing complexity when the foster parents decide to press for adoption…

Unable to cope anymore, Sam momentarily crumbles under the weight of all these issues and eventually, probationary custody of Lucy was granted to the foster parents. Nevertheless, with the hearing regarding Lucy’s adoption just a week away, Sam began to pick himself up. He found a new job, moved to an apartment just blocks away from his beloved daughter and started visiting her – something that he had yet to do ever since she moved in with her foster parents, owing to the fear of rejection he harbored.

Finally, things started to take a turn for the better as Lucy’s foster mother, Randy, realizes that it would be impossible to permanently separate Sam and Lucy. The conclusion of this beautiful story is not explicitly expressed. However, in the course of the movie, the series of events do hint that the family would be reunited.
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yeah... thatz abt it... as for the reflections... i havent dun it yet!!! so... hehez... nitez!! *bleahz!* *:P*

BORED... *bleahz!* *:P*

O0opz! Seemz tt i DID make a mistake in de spellin of his name... umm... idz ZHE YIN... *paiseh* so sorri... *:P* not that you read my blog... hehez... *:D*

Man, am bored... Lil sis'z got her frenz over @ my place to do Chemistry proj... *bleahz!* *:P* Diz minz i kanot do my GP hwrk... Gotta watch a movie on either one of the following topics: Family, Popular Culture, Marriage & sth else... kanot remember... *paiseh* tink idz Teenagers or sth lyk tt... hehez... aniweiz, my partner, PeiCi & i picked out the movie: "Stepmom"... we watched the first 33minz of the show DEN GP period ended... [aniweiz, all diz was on last thursdae, i tink... hehez... *:D*] so, hadta return the VCD to the skl librari... mmm... yeah... dunno howta gain access to the VCD animore so i gave up watchin tt movie...

yeah... so why in the world am i suddenli tokkin abt diz? idz cuz i found another movie to do the summary and reflections on... haf chosen "I Am Sam"... hehez... *:D* tink idz a movie abt Family... yeah... managedta borrow the VCD frm sumbodi & i wanna watch it BUT wiv Salina, HuiMin & Shermaine [my sister & frenz] here, i kanot do my hwrk!! m SO bored... *sighz*
oh, well... aniweiz, i took diz opportuniti to use the com while dey're havin lunch... wen dey finish i gotta go haf mine & dey'll b hoggin the com again... *bleahz!* *:P* hahaz... i feel mean... *:P*
kkz... better go... dey're comin back soon... buaiz bloggi... *:P*

signin off,
->::StOiCaL^gUrL::<-

boo! *grinz* had a great dae 2dae!!!
went out icesk8ing wiv my OG mates... *grinz* umm... unfortunateli, onli 7 out of 28 ppl came... hahaz... so much for an OG outing... *bleahz!* *:P* but it was fun, aniweiz!!! hehez... *:D*
mmm... yeah... so i met Josephine(Panda), XueYi, Peace, ChingTung(Big Sister), SzuXiang(Butler) & Francesca(Tiggie) @ JE MRT station... wah... all of dem late worz!!! kinda skard mi cuz I tawt tt i was at the wrong place!!! hahaz... aniweiz, all of us headed to JEC'z sk8in rink... O0oh! mmm... actualli Jason Yeung was supposedta cme too to make it a grp of 8 so that we cld enter the rink at a lower price but last min he cldn't make it so, Panda, Tiggie, the Butler & mi(The Housekeeper) went it as a grp of 4 and the rest went in as singles... den dey kinda hadta pay a slightli higher price... summore onli for 2 hrz... so sad, ritez? *:(* but i tink overall, we had fun ba... *bleahz!* *:P*

well, i havent sk8d in lyk... 2yrz!!! & summore in between deze 2yrz mi haf onli gone bladin once so u can sorta imagine hw wobbli i was on the ice... but surprisingli, i still managedta rememba mch of wad i learnt such a LOOOONG tym ago...stuff lyk hw to fall down... hahaz... *:P* fell thrice but still managedta get up on my own larh... mmm... tink i got one blue black comin up soon... *bleahz!* *:P* O0oh... Oso rememberd hw position my feet in order to stop... stuff lyk tt... hahaz.. yeah... aniweiz, took abt 10mins(that'z abt 7-8 rounds arnd the rink) to warm up... WIV the help of the railingz... hehez... *:D* den felt more comfortable lorh... *:P*

wah!!! den sth surprising happened worz... saw Thiri dere wiv another SAJC guy in tow!!! hehez... *winkz* mmm... if i'm nt wrong, he'z Zhe Ying arh... sorri arh... i'm HORRIBLE at rememberin chinese names arh... *paiseh* yeah... an eX SAS-ian... *:P* she was teachin him hw to sk8... or were dey... *;P* hehez... i shant sae aniting... *:D*

mmm... yeah... so aniweiz, had fun sk8in & watchin de proz... wah... reeli envi de 'lil kidz... haf the opportuniti to learn diz beautiful sport at such a young age... by the tym dey're as old as mi, dey'll be gd enuff to enter competitionz le lorh... *:P*

hahaz... mmm... afta more attemptz at sk8in forwardz & backwardz, Tiggie met her Sec sklm8, Cindy wiv her boifren... hehez... *:D* dunno de guy'z name larh... *paiseh* but aniweiz, Cindy asked mi to grab her bf'z hand & Tiggie grab her hand so tt we cld sorta b deir "crutches"... hahaz... not the wisest ting to do since i'm umm... not sae veri gd but aniweiz, it was fun larh... he almost fell twice, though... kinda skard mi... tawt i wld fall too but... hehez... *:D* i din!!! *:P* Cindy on the other hand'z no beginner to ice sk8in... idz her fifth tym! compared to her bf'z first tym... but umm... hehez... yeah... dun hafta sae larh, huh... *:P*

mmm... aniweiz, left after 3½ hrz of sk8in... ate cheese fries wiv Panda... the Butler had spicy mc chicken... Tiggie had sth frm Jollibean... Mmm... XueYi had left by den... she had sum kinda organ lesson... *:P* As for ChingTung & Peace, dey ate @ LongJohn'z... hahaz... yeah... we all got different tastes... *:P* but we 'tar-pao' to a table outside KFC & ate tgt... *:)*
yeah... well, hadta b home by 5 so... yeah... we all split afta tt, onli CT & Peace headed for town to buy a birthdae prezzi for her mum... so sweet... *:)* well, tt sorta ended my dae lorh... hahaz... eXcept...

*bleahz!* *:P* I CUT MY HAIR!!!!! hahaz... look reeli weird larh... but fortunateli idz still long enuff to tie... kanot believe i decided to cut it... esp since it usuali takez mi lyk... a few WEEKZ before i finali cut... but oh, well... ugli ugli lorh... hair can grow bak de ma... *bleahz!* *:P* mebbe i shld haf known tt earlier... lyk in p5... so i wldn't haf cried my eyez out wen i saw my short hair... hahaz... hmm... mebbe de horrible hair cut turned mi into a tomboi in pri & lower sec skl... hahaz... psychologi... *:P* or m i juz being lame... hahaz... oh, well...

diz juz remindz mi... i dunno if wanna continue to take trip sci... dear PaPaGod, plz reveal ur planz to mi... *sigh*& oh... i owe Z & Trix a date... hope kan find sum free tym sumwhere diz wk to hang out wiv 'em... miz dem, larh... *double sigh* yeah... mmm... ttz juz abt wad i wanna sae 2dae... well, take kare everibodi... & God Bless... *:)*

signin out,
->::StOiCaL^gUrL::<-

invaded...

o0oh!! HAPPI BIRTHDAY JOEY!!! *grinz* diz tai tai arh... hahaz... aniweiz, so sorri i'm unable ta join ya at yer place todae... hope u guyz' havin fun... *:)*

new quote today... "Self Discipline Is Doing What You Know You Should Do When You Don't Want To Do It..."

i agree
take homework for example!
not everyone likes to do homework
but sometimes i do if not i feel tt my brain cells are dying
so actually i dont enjoy doing work
i just fear dead brain cells in my head... lol
anyway
yes, back to self discipline
self discipline is not what i have
although i know i should have!!
i must have self discipline
waitt...
everyone must be able to have the self discipline to do work right??
a very poor definition of self discipline however...
heh
so now i go back to humanities :
i therefore conclude that self discipline is doing what you should do when you don't want to do it
ta~da!!
haha

anyway that was not my words
it is Vanilas'
who happen to look at my blog and invaded my blogg!!!
lol