ShuYing... *:)*

blk 171, #03-484... Bestest Roomies!! *:D*

three camps down, two more to go!

SFC Camp:- Faith Chasers [Joshua 1-5]
learnt alot -- faith assurance, faith food, faith unity, faith works...
reeli kewl camp. made frenz. played angel-mortal game. left one night earli to prepare for the next camp. i still do not know who my angel is. however my mortal knows me. she's too smart. figured it was me by the second letter. -.-''' haha... came earli for Pre-U Sem meetin on the last morning. so kewl. din miss the initiation. got my handprint on the banner. *:)*
people i love alot alot alot:
the SHEEEP [Shepherdess Cindy, Black Sheep [Black Sheep] Gloria, White Sheep Tedrick, Brown Sheep Byrant, Lamb Chop Andrew, Navy Sheep Jeremy, Pink Sheep Priscilla, Blue Sheep HuiRu]
by the way, i'm the Chrome Yellow Sheep... *:D*

Pre-University Seminar:- New Engagements, New Opportunities
reeli good panel discussions and some kewl parallel presentations... "Team SAJC" did the school proud!! personally, enjoid TJC's presentation... RJC's was informative and well-organised too... mmm... disappointed by some schools which were reputed to put up a good show every year... shan't mention which few.
kite flying was fun[WeiNgiap & wankers]. meeting up wiv eX-BBSSians in JJ was kewl[BingRen, Zheng Long, big baby Xuan Yu... hehe...]. chattin late into the night with old frenz reminded me of old times[Gabriel & Jeremy & Kah Yee].
people i love alot alot alot:
group 24 [gurlfren Shu Ying, wonderful Jing Da, tolerant roomie Wendy, optimistic Keefe, secret sharer Rachel, ditched Kah Yee, kewl dude Dave, big sister Merilyn, fun gurl Gwen, cheery Joyce, Raffles Khin, snapper Sebastz, small-eyes Hafiz, love-struck JunGuan, handsome Ali, patient Rekha, HwaChong Angie, full of potential Hazel, wanker Syed, poor thing Clarence, almost invisible Qi Yang, quiet ZhiWei...

CCK Youth Camp:- Alpha
being the leader of team 1, FISHIES, was good. won second place overall. was crowned "Miss Helpful" during the camp! haha... kewl, eh? *winkz* learnt alot... love my angel, ALICIA, and my mortal, SELENE!! haha... *:)*
people i love alot alot alot:
FISHIES [Joanne, Fiona, Naomi, Adam, Cassandra, Theophania & Alvin]

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fun aside, i gotta start studying for my MidYrs... -.-''' *sigh* then, another round of 'no tym to study'... *:(*

11/06/05 - 14/06/05 [CCK Family Camp! *:P*]
14/06/05 - 21/06/05 [Visit Relatives... *:S*]

boo! *:P*

hey everybody... i'll be away for quite a while so please refrain from complaining that my blog is stagnant, k? hehez... *bleahz!* *:P* O0oh... wanna hear where i will be? *;P*

28/05/05 - 30/05/05 [Saints For Christ (SFC) Camp!!! *grinz*]
30/05/05 - 03/06/05 [Pre-University Seminar *;)*]
04/06/05 - 06/06/06 [CCK Youth Alpha Camp!!! *yayz*]

yeah... then i'll come home and try to cram as much of the J1 syllabus into my head before setting off again!!! *argh*

11/06/05 - 14/06/05 [CCK Family Camp! *:P*]
14/06/05 - 20/06/05 [Visit Relatives... *:S*]

yeah... and then i'm back again to do more revision... *sigh* confirmed liao... gonna be bringing my Lecture Notes for the last two events as i really hopethink that i might be able to find some free time to myself during then to study... -.-'''

O0oh!! & to all my friends, try not to flood my hotmail inboxes, okay? *:O* anything you wanna send, you could mail it to:
zenihs_nus_ez@yahoo.com.sg or
stoicalgurl@gmail.com...
thankew... *:)*
O0oh! & also, try not to message me, okay? hehe... overseas sms veri eXpensive wor... hahaz... well, to all peepz, enjoi the holidaez, yeah? dun plae too much, though... must study for Common Tests!! JIA YOU wor... *:P* mmm... take kare, God Bless & C ya'll wen skl reopens!! buah-buaiz... *:D*

wiv lotsa luv,
the stoicalgurl... *winkz*

bball rawkd! *grinz*

today is the first day ever since term started whereby have actually just let my hair down and slack... well, okay, not really slack larh... but found time to hang out with my secondary school friends... *:)* met ChoonWee jiejie, Nixon, Isaac, Alex, XueWen, KangLu, Madeline, Derek, i dunno, i dunno, i dunno & i dunno[so sorry i don't know their names... they're friends brought by my friends] to play basketball... *:)*

haha... as usual, they were all late... *bleahz!* *:P* had been online gaming until 5am this morning and so, yeah... haha... oh, well... we had arranged to meet up at the Jurong Entertainment Centre's MacDonalds at nine in the morning... Jiejie still reminded mi not to be late some more... haha... in the end, we left for the basketball court only at 10!! hahaz... so, u can guess that i was SO lonely sitting at Mac's, waiting for them... *bleahz!* * *:P* haha... oh, well...

honestli, i wasn't expecting this crowd to come... initially when Jiejie asked me to go out with her and her friends, i was expecting, TatFai, Isaac, Ivan, KangLu, Nigel... yeah... not so much of the rest... but still, it was fun playing with them... *:D* when we got to the court where we had intended to play, half the court was occupied by another bunch of people, better players than us, and the other half was occupied by some 'outside-school' team training... saw a friend who was in SAJC's basketball team... this kinda cute small built guy in 05s57, i think... he didn't see me, though... hehez... *:D*

well, we eventually moved on to another court which had only one 'functioning' rim... better than nothing, so we split into teams and just played... *:D* mmm... you must be wondering why all of a sudden i have decided to play basketball? hehe... well, it seems like i haven't had proper PE for almost a month and i just CANNOT STAND the feeling of being unfit... so, yeah... when Jiejie asked me out for a game, i quickly accepted... thank God, mummi allowed me out... but not with condition, though... hahaz... so, last night and this morning, i hurriedly tidied my clothes drawers so that i could get OUT... *:P* mmm... KorKor also asked me out to catch a movie wiv his classmates[they had an eXtra ticket!] but unfortunately, i had plans to run some errands with Mummi so... *sharkz* hadta miss that... *:(* oh, well... *sigh* basketball's better than nothing, right? *bleahz!*
[in the end, i din go out wiv Mummi 'cuz she decided she didn't feel like it... -.-''']

mmm... back to the game... it was really enjoyable playing in the team with Derek... they were really nice, encouraging me to think positive and shoot... haha... gave me a really sillie nickname... -.-''' "Sha-mantha" "Xiao Sha" "Xiao San"... 'cuz they wanted me to try a three pointer... hahaz... i thought it was just OBVIOUS that i wouldn't be able to do so larh... but... hey! eventually, after all their cheering and encouragement, i DID! *grinz* was so kewl... *:)* they're really nice people... *:D*

o0oh... when the other teams were playing a match, Nixon & i went to shoot some hoops... 'played' ABC... was funni tryina shoot into a crooked hoop[was damaged by three guys using that court earlier...] but i still enjoid myself... *:)* Nixon seems like a nice guy too... hehe... wah... he's a good player wor...

well, overall, i had a REALLY REALLY fun tym... only sad thing is that we started late and i had to leave early... *:(*
oh, well... mmm... later, my family's going OUT fer dinner!! kewl, huh? haha... haven't ate out in some time... *:P* dining with the 'Lim's!Uncle John, Aunti Doris, Shawn & Fiona!! *grinz* yeah... hehe...
okiez... gonna stop here... take kare to those reading... God Bless ya!! *:)*

-->stoic? ME.<--

Simple Plan: "Welcome To My LifeWeek"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

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Sadly, that's how i feel this few weeks.. i knoe it just isn't the usual me, but then again.. oh, well.. i've just been so stressed.. discouraged.. frustrated.. i understand that i'm working within really tight datelines and that those 'above' me are equally busy but i just somehow feel that perhaps, progress COULD be faster if everyone did played their part.. *sigh*
Maybe it's just me.. thing's aren't going the way i want them to.. however, PaPaGod has been really gracious to me this week and i'm just so unappreciative of it.. *argh* what is wrong with me?!!

Oh, well.. .. ..
Dear PaPaGod, I'm really sorry for taking You for granted.. Please continue to fill me with Your Grace and Strength and LOVE.. Amen.

I feel better. Emotionally..
Physically, i think i'm falling sick..
Gotta learnt to sleep earlier.. I owe my body at least twenty hours of sleep over the past week.. But i'm glad that i've got someone i love sustaining me, uplifting me.. OTHER than my Mummi, Daddi, JieJie, MeiMei. KorKor..*:)*

*sigh* i've got a Chinese Essay to write now.. *yarkz* oh, well.. hope i dun spend another FOUR hours to write it and end up failing like the previous tym.. *:'(*

mmm.. take kare, all of you, dear friends.. i sincerely apologise if any of you have been getting the brunt of my impatience.. please be tolerant of me for the next month or so..

btw, this week's CAMPAIGNING WEEK!! All the best to Kenneth and Teenesh!! hehez.. *:D* Will be supportin ya guyz!! Do S54 proud, yeah? *winkz*

ladeedum~*

hey all, thanks for all your encouragement! i'm really all right... *:)*
c ya'll tml and all the best for tml's test! *bleahz!* *:P*

lalala~*

it's a happy day
and i thank God for the weather[btw, SA won RJ in soccer today!! *grinz*]
it's a happy day
and i'm living it for my Lord
it's a happy day
and things are gonna get better
living each day by the promises in God's Word...

oh, and SAJC's Concert Band did us proud with yet another GOLD with HONOURS... *:D*
that's all for today... got to rewrite the Pre-U Sem script & prepare for a Bio Test... FOUR huge chapters wor... *yikes*

*stressed* = desserts spelt backwards...

just had the interview for Council yesterday... honestly, i have no idea how i fared but personally, i know i made a major boo boo... *bleahz!* *:P* was asked to sing the first stanza of our school hymn... hahaz... nothing tough since almost EVERYONE knows i LOVE croak singing... hahaz... so what happened? well, i got nervous nearing the end of the stanza & i juz forgot the last two lines!! man, what is wrong with me?!! haha... oh, well... i tried my best... *:P*

O0oh... just wanna say THANKEW to certain wonderful people who have encouraged me during those nerve-wrecking moments... hehe... first of all, my family larh... hahaz... Mummy, Daddy, JieJie, MeiMei. Korkor... i know they have been praying really hard for me... *:)* TatFai, May, Ian Tan, Joshua Thia, Daniel, Colin Goh, PeiCi, WeiHao, Benjamin, Jeremy, Joel, Shaun Gan, Zhen Xiong, Derek & many others... *:)* yeah... well, whatever the outcome, i will believe and trust in our PaPaGod... *:)*

well, today? hehe... went to visit the OCS HQ... it was fun!!! had a cute and humourous "tour guide", going by the name of "Wee"... *:D* mmm... hung around the S51 peepz most of the time 'cause it seemed that my classmates had already a group of friends from other classes and i didn't want to be so 'eXtra'... hehez... yeah... so basically, i had a fun time with Guna, Nat & Dinesh... shall not elaborate... *:P* yeah... came home late and i now have got to do Pre-U Sem work... *sighz* gotta learn to be less stressed... take things easy... *:P*

O0oh... To my friends out there, i wanna apologise if i've been ignoring ya or been 'PMS'ing... *paiseh* thanks for being patient with me... wish to spend more time with ya'll... well, take kare... God Bless & nite nitez... *:P*

*yux*, *yuckz*, *YARKZ*.

i finally finished my PI!! *whew*
juz wanna sae thankew to Victor fer helpin mi get my thoughtz organised & gettin tingz started... *grinz*

STILL feelin sick... *sighz* it's been two weeks already and my horrible cold+sorethroat has yet to leave me... *bleahz!* *>:(* oh, well... this sorta eXplains why i dun really lykta tok on the phone, kae? sorry guyz... not that i dun wanna chat... juz feelin yucki... O0oh! & oso, dun sms mi unless idz impt, yeah? hahaz... my bill this month'z gonna burst.. *sharkz*